Oh, the things you need to do before you get to where you want to be.
I need to live with my mother and step-father until I'm settled - with a permanent job and place of my own. It feels, at times, like I never will again walk into my own living room or kitchen. I know I will but I want it tomorrow!
I'm impatient these days, wanting to perform step three before I finish step one. In a sense, I am starting from scratch again. For over twenty years, I was part of a loving twosome. Though I moved to the coast last fall, I needed to get my bearings, both literal and figurative. I needed to learn to see the coast as a new resident, not just as a tourist that I've been for so many years.
Tomorrow, I go to Adecco for a job interview. I'm nervous, but practically bouncing up and down with excitement and impatience. I want to do the interview now! I want to work towards the independence I've worked so hard to develop and need to re-learn now as a "single" person.
I'm going to school now and need to complete the math I quit in high school. Not being strong, at all, in mathematics, I quit math in grade 10 out of a sense, then, of hopelessness and frustration. Now, in order to get into a Bachelor of Arts program in English, I need to not only re-acquaint myself with mathematics, but to persist and maybe even learn to enjoy it. To quote a cliche, I always seem to want to put the cart before the horse.
Step One before Step Two; crawling before walking. Remember!